Eilene: From that and the shock of learning that it was not a heart attack from working too hard as I thought it was, that it was actually this infection from drug abuse and that he had been addicted for at least a year probably, I started to examine what happened in terms of what happened to him and how I missed it. I am a journalist. I'm used to asking questions. I'm a smart person. Yet I decided it was not that, whether consciously or unconsciously. I decided it was going to be everything else, bipolar disorder, a cognitive disorder. Maybe he was psychotic. Maybe he had an eating disorder instead of the very obvious thing; oh, he's a drug addict. He's struggling with a drug addiction is a better way to say it. The book grew out of that investigation and also looking at myself and my own culpability and what was happening to our family, the fallout -- we had two children -- and then an investigation a little bit into what's going on in the white-collar professional world that you know so well in terms of unhappiness, depression, anxiety, substance use, and substance abuse. It was a very sobering exploration for me. I ended the book sort of looking at what's coming for all of our kids in the next generation of white-collar professionals and societal leaders and judges and lawyers and things like that.